songofprussia:

ass-swag:

[he held the apple, frowning a bit, and just stared at it for a while, before risking taking a bite. The frown grew as he chewed, and it took quite some effort to swallow it]

Fuck.. It hurts a lot

Go slowly. I know it hurts but if you don’t try again things will only get worse, right?

I guess..

[he took a deep breath, not really sure if he should go for another bite or not, but he tries it anyway. However it doesn’t take long until he curls up, having difficulties to breath, and curses under his breath]

Mehr sein als scheinen: ass-swag: songofprussia: ass-swag: I— I can’t breathe well Shit, I...

ass-swag:

songofprussia:

ass-swag:

I— I can’t breathe well

Shit, I need to eat something, don’t I?

Yes, I am afraid you need.

[Gilbert finally let the hold on the other’s face loose until his hands were back away from Roberto.]

Just a little bit and nothing too heavy….

[he held the apple, frowning a bit, and just stared at it for a while, before risking taking a bite. The frown grew as he chewed, and it took quite some effort to swallow it]

Fuck.. It hurts a lot

Im on my phone now

songofprussia:

ass-swag:

I— I can’t breathe well

Shit, I need to eat something, don’t I?

Yes, I am afraid you need.

[Gilbert finally let the hold on the other’s face loose until his hands were back away from Roberto.]

Just a little bit and nothing too heavy. Maybe a fruit?

Okay. I can eat that

[he let himself sink in the couch, and stared at the other. He cold barely see anymore and wasn’t really paying attention to what he was saying, so he just concentrated on trying to breathe]

its 2 am and I want to dance

what is going on in my life

songofprussia:

ass-swag:

songofprussia:

ass-swag:

[he just took a deep breath and wrapped his arms arond Gilbert.]

I think I am gonna pass out

No, hey, I want you to sleep but not passing out!

[Instinctively, Gilbert cupped Roberto’s face with his both hands and forced the other to look at him.]

Roberto! Put yourself together. Now. Come on, I know you can do it. 

[he took another deep breath, frowning, and holds Gilbert’s hands]

I am here, Gilbert. I am right here

Yes, good. You’re here. Now breath.

[He said in a very clear voice, still not letting go of the other’s face.]

Tell me when you feel calmer.

I— I can’t breathe well

Shit, I need to eat something, don’t I?

songofprussia:

ass-swag:

[he just took a deep breath and wrapped his arms arond Gilbert.]

I think I am gonna pass out

No, hey, I want you to sleep but not passing out!

[Instinctively, Gilbert cupped Roberto’s face with his both hands and forced the other to look at him.]

Roberto! Put yourself together. Now. Come on, I know you can do it. 

[he took another deep breath, frowning, and holds Gilbert’s hands]

I am here, Gilbert. I am right here

songofprussia:

 

It’s a huge mess now.

[Gilbert nodded, agreeing with his friend’s statement; he simply couldn’t sugarcoat things. Life was never sugarcoat and he always lived with that philosophy.]

Everyone has times where everything is a huge mess and even if you have the support of the other, you’re the one who has to fix things. It’s the moment you have to take strength for places you didn’t even know that existed.

[Another sigh and an awkward pat on Roberto’s back; to be true at this rate Gilbert would be hugging his friend but he was afraid to start the other so he preferred going slowly.]

I know you’re doing your best at the moment…And you will see, in a future, how things will get better and you will notice you can do much better. 

[he just took a deep breath and wrapped his arms arond Gilbert.]

I think I am gonna pass out

songofprussia:

 

[Gilbert heard everything carefully and after Roberto had finished, the Prussian breathed deeply and left a heavy sigh scape from his lips, shaking his head. If he had went through a panic attack it surely had been so rare that he didn’t remember properly how it feel so he tried to not discuss that with Roberto but not eating…]

Listen.

[He started, licking his own lips as he tried to choose the words carefully, his hand still caressing Roberto’s brunet hair.]

I know it’s difficult but you need to close your eyes and think—-If you need to take care of them then you have to be healthy. 

[Now he pulled back just so he could take a look at Roberto, his frown growing up.]

I am not going to force you but…I don’t know. I think you should try again. The way it is going you will be the one to collapse soon.

I can’t, Gilbert. I just can’t

I know that but I can’t do anything about it.. And it sucks

[he hides his face on Gilbert’s chest, taking a deep breath, but still trying to keep himself calm. He knew this would happen. He knew he would break down if he talked to Gilbert, and that’s why he was avoiding him. He didn’t want anyone to see him like that, but it was too late to run away now. He just couldn’t lie to him]

God.. What have I done with myself?  What did I do? It wasn’t like this before. It’s just a huge mess now